Been off my head lately.
I told Tom Burkland I was canning the liner.
I told Sid I was too. He said walk away for a bit.
I'm taking a chance by saying this but I've probably done more than most in life.
All the different sports, military and work plus adventures (some dangerous and unscripted).
NOTHING ever got my blood flowing like the long car!!!!. I was being scouted to play Junior A in Canada and an American guy that was setting up the TV stations was prepared to take me to the States, house me, school me and let me play. 16 and mom said no. Army, top of my class. Boxing, never defeated. Supercross 23/24. F2, won every race I finished (14). If it ran all the way we won against guys with money and trailers!!!. I borrowed. Not boasting here. Facts. I never enjoyed F2. Posers with bucks.
I get into LSR due to anger which was justified.
Here is a sport and a project you can have 3 hours sleep and run into the shop in the morning for. Total excitement. Learning by the minute. This is the HEAVEN on planet Earth people speak of.
Never seen a car live but I probably love it more than all you put together. Total commitment!!!!!.
I prayed, got lucky, prayed some more and kept getting help. It was off the charts.
Right now I'm depressed with no answers. I'm not even sure if this was meant to be anymore.
Local advice was find an American partner. Guys have their own projects and I'm in Africa. Never going to happen.
I'm done, probably looking like a fraud behind my back. So many helped me here at home, all you guys pitched in and even with all that I hit the proverbial brick wall.
I'm still a dreamer but everything I touch goes south. No breaks.
Got my hands and head. Never shirked a day in my life. Trying to be the best human I can. Where I used to be judge, jury and executioner I'm letting stuff fly over my head.
Without a long car there is no life. You all said it's the journey and not the destination. I took that in like a sponge and now my hands are tied. Crying wouldn't help and I'm
all out of ideas. I pray and have faith but I'm not getting younger.
Any advice you boys come up with would help. Maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself and when I read this post later I'll be embarrassed and want to delete it.
Tell me what to do?
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