I would like to thanks EVERYONE for the support, emails and PMs, it means the world to me.
I never intended for this to be SCTA bashing. Lets look at this from the SCTA prospective:
Lets say we (the ones reading this) are SCTA board members in a meeting for disciplinary action against a racer.
Here comes a trusted official (the investigator in this case) laying out item after item of horrible things this person did.
Lets vote.......'no ban or 5 years' (NO OTHER CHOICE) <how do you like that for some inside info!
What do yo think you would vote?I doubt 10% of the board members could tell you what I looked like. I mean who is this 'Jonny Hotnuts' anyway!? Why would the board at large have any reason NOT to believe all the stuff that was being said by a fellow board member? Unless I had previous knowledge or insight I would of followed along and banned myself also shouting "f- him, throw'em to the wolves"!!!!
I have been angry with the SCTA for a long time....but its NOT the SCTA I should be angry with. It was the person accusing me and presenting all of the stuff as fact to the board. I will admit that I have some REAL mixed feelings about some of the board members who knew during or after, that some of the elements didnt exactly add up. Considering the circumstances if I were a board member and and had doubt or concerns about the validity of some accusations I would of said said something as apposed to doing nothing. I strive in all aspects of life to stand up for the little guy, unwilling or unable to stand up for themselves. If I were to be angry it would be that I feel that when I needed you, you werent there.
-And of course angry at the person who used emotion to compromise the integrity of my investigation. That person I am angry with.....no doubt.
I dont know who my accuser was, maybe its common knowledge who conducts disciplinary investigations but it is unbeknownst to me. It is easy to, behind closed doors, to make accusations about another....its quite another to do so in a public arena.
-I am calling my accuser out, here and now publicly. Stand up and say everything you accused me of is accurate and you know all of it was 100% fact. Tell me I was judged without pre held malice and equally as all other racers who fell in similar circumstance. I am giving you the opportunity to say this online vs a face to face without fear of retribution.....because,....If you had the balls to say it was fair and correct and we were face to face it would result in me getting a lifetime ban (*although then a ban would be justified, as would be my motivation.)
SO STAND AND DELIVER, IM CALLING YOU OUT. YOU CAN TALK TO THE BOARD BEHIND CLOSED DOORS AND ACCUSE SOMEONE OF ALL THIS STUFF....say it now.
Chris, I don't have a dog in this fight, but will give you some words of wisdom for what ever they are worth. Take down all of your videos on the internet.Glad you survived that crash. Tom G.
Thanks TG, and I dont know what videos you would be referring to. I have an number of videos on facebook with 'balloons tied to my dog' and 'boy gets a carrot cone as apposed to ice cream as he expected' but not much more.
I wouldn't call an appeal '' begging'' but standing up for your self. IT appears that some of the board members are having second thoughts. Appeal it. 5 years is to long.
This is a hard one for me brother,....
At this point I dont even know if I would accept a repeal of the ban, let it stand. What has changed really...'second thoughts'? Almost a year has transpired and multiple board meetings. If some were having 'second thoughts' maybe, just maybe someone with 'second thoughts' could of taken some stand no matter how slight. Where where you when I really needed a friend? Thanks for the 'second thoughts' but you had opportunities to do the right thing and allowed them to come to pass. By doing nothing, you elected to turn your back on me and no matter how disappointing this is....it is what it is. -I see the situation of knowing there were 'problems' with the investigation that would justify you having 'second thoughts' and doing nothing is in many respects worse than someone angry with me making false or misled statements. At least a person angry has motivation, maybe even justified anger (doesnt justify drowning someone, but...). A person that knows something is wrong and chooses to not support a friend in need.....well.....hummmmm.....
To me.....the ban sucks not because I dont entirely deserve to be punished, because I believe as many other do that it was not based on fair or correct elements...so what does that make it? But what is worse....is the fact that I truly felt let down by friends, the SCTA board and even my accuser who KNEW things werent exactly the way they should of been and chose to do nothing. Doing what you feel is right and doing the right thing even if may alienate you from your colleagues/friends to me is the most important attribute a person can have.
I must confess myself disappointed no board members past or present have stepped up and said anything on this thread, pro or con. Seems.....rather quite.....Maybe with the 700 views no board members were included?
-Tell me I'm wrong about anything I have said.
~JH
ALSO....
If anyone disputes ANYTHING I have said, wants to discuss elements I have disclosed, or just wants to have a friendly chat about the weather or other and wants to talk personally without being on this forum:
503-422-6575 <you can call that 24/7 or email
jonny_hotnuts@hotmail.com
Also note....
I have talked to several board members. EVEN WHEN ASKED I refused to reveal who gave me inside info and betray the trust of another; even if it was a benefit to my cause. I will not reveal names of anyone to another or publicly.